is that a mop on your head or are you just extra frizzy today?

wonderful news today - since our census was low at work, my boss called and asked if i could not come in. "well...sure... i guess... that would be fine."
you KNOW i was doing a happy dance after that!

so, i had a meeting at 1 about a research study i'm interested in, and i took my paycheck to the bank, and since then i've been able to just chillax and clean and... remember what it feels like to have a minute to myself.

i'm flying to see M next tuesday, so i have a lot of preparation to do for that - packing, primping, filling up with massive amounts of vitamins and airborne... y'know, the usual. i'm going to shop for some fall clothes...
i want to share some thoughts, but not to invoke pity, it's just a ramble...
i'm not very put together...
josh and i both had crazy work weeks last week, so we went out friday night to blow off some steam - and i realized that i really didn't have anything to wear that i just feel stellar in. so i've been paying attention, trying to figure out what it is that has me feeling like the ugly duckling, and while i still haven't found a culprit, i do think i've found a sure-fire way to a cure... if i can actually stand to go through with it.
i'm going to get a haircut. a trim, really...a spruce.
and i need one - i haven't had one since june. my hair doesn't bounce and glisten in the sun much these days. it curls up and hisses at the sun through it's angry mass that, if i don't put 3 products in, i can't pull a comb through. yes, my hair needs some relief.

the problem is that i have to find a salon, and that's what has me thinking i don't know if i can go through with this. when i'm feeling ugly, the last thing that i want to do is go into a room full of beautiful people who spend their whole day with beautiful people making them even more beautiful. do you think they could cut my hair if i have a paper-bag over my head (and the rest of my body, but make it a black paper bag so maybe it will be more slimming...)?
i guess i need "hairapy"...before it's everlastingly too late.