"If you are an eagle at heart,

what are you doing on that perch?

Do you have any idea how greatly you're needed

to soar and explore?"

- Come Before Winter and Share My Hope

beautiful

thank you

I get up in the middle of the night to thank you;
your decisions are so right, so true—I can't wait till morning!
I'm a friend and companion of all who fear you,
of those committed to living by your rules.
Your love, God, fills the earth!
Train me to live by your counsel.

(roughly, Psalm 119:63-64, the Message)

yellow roses = yes

sometimes God answers prayers in unusual ways.

first trip to the emergency room - 9/9/09

see more dog and puppy pictures

is it just me, or do things seem quiet around here this summer?
we have a lot going on here in our neighborhood.
what about you?

updates and news and the like, coming soon.

i'm broke but i'm happy
i'm poor but i'm kind
i'm short but i'm healthy, yeah.
i'm high, but i'm grounded
i'm sane, but i'm overwhelmed
i'm lost, but i'm hopeful, baby
what it all comes down to is that everything's gonna be fine, fine, fine
'cause i've got one hand in my pocket
and the other one is givin' a high five.
i feel drunk but i'm sober
i'm young and i'm underpaid
i'm tired, but i'm workin' yeah.
i care, but i'm restless
i'm here, but i'm really gone
i'm wrong and i'm sorry, baby
and what it all comes down to is that everything's gonna be quite alright
'cause i've got one hand in my pocket and the other one is flickin' a cigarette.
what it all comes down to is that i haven't got it all figured out just yet
'cause i've got one hand in my pocket and the other one is givin' a peace sign.
i'm free but i'm focused
i'm green but i'm wise
i'm hard but i'm friendly, baby
i'm sad but i'm laughing.
i'm brave but i'm chicken sh*#
i'm sick, but i'm pretty, baby
what it all boils down to is that no one's really got it figured out just yet.
'cause i've got one hand in my pocket and the other one is playin' the piano.
what it comes down to my dear friends is that everything is just fine, fine, fine, fine
'cause i've got one hand in my pocket and the other one is hailin' a taxi cab.

- alanis morissette

happy Holy Day! :)

How about some Good Friday praise and worship?

it occurred to me this morning that i have been allowing myself to become so stressed that i have stopped doing many of the things i enjoy, including napping, crafting, and blogging. i should explain that i have had such a rough work experience lately that it's been hard to think about or do much else.

however, because i am not a robot, and because i am a woman, this all work and no play job is not working out for me - which is actually been common knowledge for some time now, but i've spent months deliberating and berating myself for not being good enough, trying hard enough, being organized enough - you know the drill! - i've been trying to fit a square peg in a round hole - it's. just. not. working. out.

my husband and i were able to visit his family in ohio during the first weekend in february, and i was able to "compartmentalize" my life for that short period of time and focus on enjoying mundane activities and not allowing myself to become anxious about my job. i spent quite a bit of time in prayer that weekend, not that i hadn't been praying about it before, but i was able to really focus and spend some time there - and i literally begged for God to give me a way out.

four days later, on a particularly bad day of work, i received a job offer which i already knew i wanted to accept. i'm returning to my former employer, starting tomorrow, and will ease back into the swing of things while simultaneously stepping out of my current job... i gave them notice today.

i still have anxiety about some small things, like paying the bills ;) but... it's not eating me alive like this other anxiety has been, and i know in my heart of hearts that God has provided and will provide and i will continue to thank Him and praise Him for His provision and that He is taking care of the small stuff and the big stuff, too, because i can't do it without Him.